friday night lights....

hello hello!! been awhile again. i have been catching myself coming and going. well, i take that back, yesterday and the day before i did pretty much nothing. just chillin a bit, some down time. i just made literally like more than 1000 flashcards for us to help heaven practice her words and math. she really broke my heart again tonite. she is so down on herself. she was calling herself stupid and dumb because she didn't know how to do multiplication yet. she said"i am ten years old and i know everyone is doing more than addition and subtraction, i am too stupid too learn it". i wanted to die inside for her. she trys so hard. i can't believe that she has to go thru this. she is way more grown in some ways and way not in others. i decided tonite come high water i am gonna help her. her teachers do a wonderful job at the school she is now. i just know that we can help her also. now that i am ready to cry......i am gonna move on.

never in my life have i ever been more ready for spring/summer. i want to be outside. i want a garden. this cold stuff is ridiculous. been some cold days to ralph's and back, that's for sure.

i have taken over the website, myspace and making a facebook for our church. it is something that i really enjoy-a lot. i hope to (when i get it going more) reach people and spread His Word. i wish there was church like on tuesdays, thursdays, and Sundays. seriously.

next week should be the last visit from out licensing worker. i have had a worker of some type here for the last 3 weeks and 2 more to go. heavens interventionist will be here the following week. anyway, mind is wondering a little. i am excited to get all that done. had to get heaven her physical today to give to her when she comes again. wrapping things up...wooohoooooo!!!

so the friday night lights thing is a bit of irony. it is friday night and i sit here by the light of the computer and tv. happy that our lives have changed and i won't wake up (or go to bed) sick. that i am not doing something that i am sure to regret if drinking. who new the simple life would be so nice? glad i found out.

i am a little excited about Sunday. and no it is not because of football...gag me...well guess kinda it is...heading to momma b's house for some friends, food, laughter and love. wooohoooooo!!! am ready for that. some good ole belly laughs. it is the best med you know??!!!!

my boyz are all snuggled up...kyle is snoring and the little boyz are under the covers not to be seen until about 1:30ish, you know=right after i fall asleep, ggrrrr....happens everytime. we all actually get to sleep in tomorrow. guess i should start picking up the mess and winding down some...wish you all a blessed happy day tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!! ttfn....

mind wondering issues...

hey...ok my mind is just running crazy today!! well it wasn't til just a little bit ago. see i have this friend, well maybe she is still a friend, that things went very very sour and we have not talked in months. i have been thinking a lot about her, seeing her in my dreams, seeing her in town, lately seeing her name on the computer being friends with my other friends, and it makes me wonder if i should contact her? should i see how things go, give it a little more and just bust it out there? or should i wait? but wait for what? wait for more time to pass and there may not be a chance to say what i need to say, or wait til it is just not fixable? or...should i just throw my heart out there and if she rejects me, fine, but she will know where i stand, that i forgive her and that i am really not upset, mad, or even hurt in the least anymore. to tell her all kinds of things. man, i can't figure out what to say, should i shouldn't i? just running myself crazy...and my hubby...no surprise there....

today is just a thought provoking day i guess. church was awesome and it got me thinking what is my dream? what do i want to do with the gifts God gave me? What is my purpose exactly? hhmmmm...just think think think....

well, guess i will go and try to run myself crazier....

feels like we are living in the country....

ok--so i am just gonna bust it all out there...who knew that gibson was like living in the country. this is almost ridiculous. don't get me wrong-i love it here, but these animals have GOT TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is worse than sibley could have ever been about animals. we have possums in our yard! we have foxes run thru the yard, skunks, and did i mention stupid disgusting creepy little mice are in our house now. UUGGHHHHH!!! i can't take it. first of all i am afraid a possum will eat my 2 little dogs...lol...irrational i am sure, but a concern yet the same. chili (the chihuahua) has little dog syndrome and chases everyhting in the world. oh yeah speaking of which, i forgot to mention there are more squirrels that people here also. back to the mice. i am so afraid of them i could choke to death. makes me feel like the house is dirty and not right. today we have cught the third one!!! yuk, yuk, yuk.... everyone's like its cold out, look where you live(between a grain plaice and bean place) ur bound to have them...WHY I ASK< class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">ok, my ranting is over now.

and yes, we are living in alaska!! man it is terrible. both my boyz have had a turn freezing their feet up. chili was crying really hard one night-he chased a squirrel and was froze by the time he got up to the house. they are cold anyway since they are so little. never a small dog again---only big ones!!! my aunt lala has the perfect dog!! i am so in love and so jealous...she is husky and shepard--beautiful looks, perfect temperment, and soooooo loving and sweet and gentle...she is wonderful.

well today is another day of being in the house. i have not been out of the house since Sunday!!! while it is very nice, i need to get to Ralph's. I am feeling very bad about not being there. It has been too cold for heaven to walk and me for that matter the last few days. stuff that needs to be done. butt he good part is heaven and i get to play games and enjoy our time.

well, i hone everyone is staying warm and cozy as possible, happy friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ttyl, Tina

hey all, happy Tuesday!! it is nice and sunny, only freezing!!! you know, i love the cold weather, but i am really starting to get used to the idea of liking spring and summer. i am ready for my garden, fires, sitting outside, and having the outside of the house look pretty-instead of drab. it's almost 1:30pm and feels like ti should be 8pm already. heaven (my niece that is living with us) had the flu allll night last night. puke, poop, puke, then more puke. thank goodness she is 10 and can make it to the bathroom and doesn't even want anyone in there with her. i stay outside the door. man, how could i have gotten any luckier? for those of you who don't know me---I CANT STAND PUKE. not even my own. my dearest sweet hubby helps me and cleans up after me when i am sick. thank goodness for him also!!!! she should be starting school tomorrow if no more pukey puke happens. she is really excited she gets to go to her old school again. i am excited for her. hoping that they can help her as much as they did before. only thing, i will not know what to do with my time when she is not here. Ralph will be happy that i can get back on track with him. i know he really depends on me.

just sitting around taking it easy pretty much today, hoping that the pains in my stomach are from digesting food instead of working up a puke fest. uugghhhh.... not a lot of stuff going on anymore. things are starting to slow down to normal. whatever that may be...lol.

well, i am getting really sleepy so i am gonna take a rest i think...hope you all have had a wonderful day and enjoy your night...be back soon....

howdy!! long time to not hear from me!! man, been so vusy i can't think straight!! and can u even believe that the one minute i am typing there are 6 kids in my house. yes i said 6!!! from 12-5 years old. talk about a busy times. but it is soooo nice to hear the footsteps, the laughter, the hugs...i got sooo many tonight. man, zeus is even ready to drop!

so Christmas was wonderful!! how about yours? new years eve was awesome also. nothing like the love of friends to ring the new year in. we were home just in time to count down and we danced a slow dance in the living room then went to bed. new years day, we didnt even get out of our jammies, yes we took showers, and put new ones back on. it was really nice.

with our foster classes done all we have are our classes at church for 3 more weeks , time is easing up some--at least til next week when i have 25,000 phone calls to make. my niece has been staying with us for a week now, it is an indefinite amount of time she will be here. we are anxious to help her get the counseling and the things she is needing. long, long story. but i have made several appts, and still have several to make.

well, just thought i would post something since i havent in so long...hope u all have a great day. ttyl....